Kindergarten

As I was sitting here today, all of a sudden it hit me, you will be starting Kindergarten in 4 months! And, I'm a little sad about this. It's not like I haven't known the past 4-1/2 years that this day would come, and I've been preparing for it all year. But, 4 months sounds so much sooner than saying, in the Fall. It's really coming fast and I just don't know if 4 months is enough time for me to completely be ready. However, I will keep this to myself, because I know that you, are ready, and it has nothing to do with me at all. You are a big girl now, you are not a toddler, you are a school kid... I just have to learn to wrap my mind around it and try really hard not to have a nervous breakdown every time I think about it. You are independent and so ready to take on this new role in life. I know that you can handle it, you don't need me to take care of everything for you anymore. I know this because, when I picked you up from pre-school today, you got in the car and said to me, "Mom, I kind of had a rough day". And when I asked you why, you said, "None of my friends wanted to play with me at playtime, they were being mean, and said they were going to leave me out". First my heart broke in half, and then, I wanted to say something really innapropriate and get all defensive for you, but, I contained myself and just asked you how you handled it. You said "I told them that when they were ready to be nice to me, that they could come play with me, and I walked away". And that is when I realized, you don't need me to fight your battles for you, you are capable all on your own. Most adults don't even handle situations like this appropriately. And then you told me that one of them called you a Treehead...and I laughed a little, sorry about that.
I love you sis, more than the world. And I know, you are going to make a wonderful school kid. Until then though, we have 4 months, and I am just going to pretend that you are not about to be 5 and start school. Denial is the best way to handle this, right?

xoxo,
Mommy